A Countdown to G-Day: Day 18

I am crying right now.

I have been listening to and watching several clips of my childhood. From the Hundred Acre Woods song, to Rainbow Connection, to Perfect.





Who doesn't love that silly old bear? Who can honestly say that they never had their own enchanted place when they were young?

That in itself is heartwarming. But the part where I lost it was the line, "from Christopher's childhood days." There's such a bittersweet and nostalgic tinge to that line. It's subtly implying that it's already done, Christopher Robin already grew up, and these are just fond memories of a happier time. The best part about this, though, is that we aren't given time to dwell on this. After that line, the song quickly rushes to the introduce Eeyore and the rest of the merry cast. It reminds you that however much time has passed isn't what's important-it's the people. It doesn't matter that it's long gone; you'll always have them even if it's just in your memories.



It's a song about rainbows. It's a song about stars. But more importantly, it's a song about hope.

It's about hoping even whilst knowing the futility of it all.

Yes, it's illogical. Yes, it's foolish. Yes, it's stupid. But you know what? I'll keep on hoping.



I love this episode. I love it almost as much as I loved the Last Starmaker episode.

I LOVE this show. And this episode was the best way to end it.

You've probably been through that lady. She might've been your parent, your teacher, whatever.

All she wanted was you to be perfect perfect PERFECT. She'd make you feel so scared. So scared you couldn't even do anything about it. She'd make you feel so guilty. Guilty for wasting her time, guilty for wasting your life, guilty for being worthless, guilty for existing.

All you wanted was to please her. So you'd try and try and try even though you were slowly losing yourself in the process.

Do you get over it? Maybe. Maybe not.

It's hard.

It's a constant struggle. You have to continually fight the voices in your head.

You have to keep on trying to convince yourself that you're not worthless.

You will always hear the words, "You're not perfect."

And you aren't. You never will be.

But in the end, life isn't about making everything perfect. It's about making everything beautiful.

You are beautiful. You are unique. Your life has meaning. You are not a waste.

You're you.